Sometimes in this job we can be harder on ourselves than anyone else could be.
We question ourselves…
Did I do everything I could?
Should I have done this?
Maybe I should have done that?
Have I caused ….?
Was it my fault…..?
If you were quick enough, some of you would have seen a post pop up last week. I wrote it after getting home after a night shift and a particularly tough job. I let everything out in that post and it helped me for a while.
Mrs999 woke up, read the post, and said that it ‘was too much’ . In my book that’s enough for me to take it down, so down it came.
It’s been nearly a week now and I’ve just checked up on my patient. She is still struggling, still not out of the woods, but is alive.
As far as the questions go….
Yes, I did manage her airway well enough to prevent aspiration pneumonia (which I honestly thought was very likely). Her chest x-ray is clear.
I didn’t fail her.
That is a much needed sigh of relief for me.