If you have been reading my blog for a while now, you will have read on multiple occasions, my thoughts on religion and my own personal beliefs, or lack of them.
Today, a comment popped up from my old blog site, from a post from about a year ago, which detailed my thoughts and troubles following a particularly difficult suicide I had to deal with.
If you haven’t read the original post, then click here to read it to put the following comment into context.
The comment that came in is from a gentleman calling himself ‘FirePastor’
As his name suggests he is a pastor for his Fire Service and EMT`s and he has put forward his own views for me to mull over and consider. I dont see his comments as preaching to me, but I do very much appreciate the sentiments in his comments.
So much, that I felt it was a waste for it to sit hidden in an old post on an old inactive blog site. With that in mind, here it is :
“I just read this today, a little over a year after you wrote it I do believe.
I have to tell you that I am a man of devout faith. I am actually a pastor and chaplain to my firefighters/rescue emt’s. In regards to one of your last paragraphs. You stated something to the sorts of you didn’t believe in Heaven or Hell but an afterlife. You commented earlier than that about you hope the young lady found peace. Heaven equals peace. That is just the deep down in our spirit realization of who our creator is whether we acknowledge him or not.
I don’t want you to think I’m coming down on you for this because that is not my intentions. I wanted to put another opinion out their for you to consider. I know you say you sometimes would love to have faith but that would mean this young one would go to hell because suicide is sin. Lets look at this carefully. I think that suicide is very selfish because its not just yourself that has to deal with your actions but everyone…..including you and other first responders. You aren’t by yourself. That said, I am of the conclusion (through scripture of course) that:
#1- We have no idea how God works in situations like this.
#2-There is no telling what feelings or thoughts of remorse went through that young ladies mind while in the act…..the scriptures tell us that he knows our thoughts as well, not just our actions.
#3- We will ultimately never know the eternal destiny of this young woman until we ourselves get their.
There IS a God and we will give an account for our lives one day when we stand judgement before his holiness. There is salvation in Jesus Christ for those who accept him. It doesn’t take all of the brains in the world to accept faith but to accept willingly that there is forgiveness. If you want to reference that you will find it in 2 Corintians chapter 3.
I didn’t write this to preach at you but to shed awareness. I hope I wasn’t too forward with all of this as well. I am sure that the Lord’s heart broke when your patient made that decision, BUT He is the one who decides…..I trust in his judgement because it’s a lot better than my finite mind will ever comprehend. I will be in prayer for you and everyone else associated in this tragedy.
I dont really have a great deal to say about it, but I felt it deserved sharing.
I keep saying that I dont believe, but yet even I now acknowledge that all of my questioning seems to point to the fact that I am searching for some sort of meaning in what we see and deal with through our profession. Whether that is a religious quest, or just trying to get a handle on the whole ‘bad things happen to good people’ that I keep seeming to see, is the question.
Thank you for taking the time to comment and share your beliefs ‘FirePastor’. I really do appreciate it.
Your words havent convinced me of anything other than what I already ‘feel’, but they have made me think again, and for that I thank you.